Rolling with the punches??

I suppose this blog was supposed to take off with a little bit more fervor than dying off in a matter of a month. But i have a post that seems somewhat meaningful to me in more than just a personal blog post kind of way.

Being 23 and already hitting a quarterlife crisis is the scariest thing ever.

I had a panic attack last week after driving home from the pharmacy and thinking if this is what the rest of my life is going to be worked out to be. That I would work somewhere where my services, though useful, are not useful at all. My parents have told me to be more useful when working at the pharmacy but i knew that there was something missing when all the patients were speaking korean or spanish - neither of which i speak comfortably enough in medical terms to help them. So what did i do? I did logistical stuff in the back. Counting, stock, deliveries, phone calls to other retailers, and a little bit of entertaining. I was the radio girl, the clean up girl, and the owner's daughter. It felt essentially like being at home.. but all day... and all day you get nagged.

But this isn't what i wanted.

I hit my crisis on the drive home because i felt like a machine. Something that goes to a job, does it with lifeless motivation, and no real drive - merely to help my parents because they asked me to. I had to be done with this somehow... and somewhere along the line hearing about other people moving forward in the directions that they wanted to was all that could keep me jealous and strive for more. I am 23. still a young 20s something but nevertheless the best years of my life had just passed and people are supposed to be miserable from here on out? I refuse to let that statement get the best of me. I am 23 and I was unhappy with where i was. At a time where my only responsibility is taking out the trash and making sure my dogs are fed, I can take risks, move places, and shake mountains.

So I get a new job.

And how do my parents react? With no support at all. But this one.. i know that it's not an opportunity i can let up merely because my parents are unhappy with me. I know i would be kicking myself if i let this one go and every morning wonder as i get ready for work the "what ifs." But I'm ready to lose, fail or be successful before allowing the what ifs to butt in this time.

Let's go.

Random THoughts.

Halfway in my 2.5 week mini break.
Was feeling pretty lethargic in the past couple of days, doing absolutely nothing. But I'm excited for productive days, like tomorrow.
Tomorrow a friend and I are going to spend the latter part of our day, sitting at one of those hip little artsy coffee shops downtown, and apply to as many jobs as we can possibly find. I've already found one. potential sweet job. Will tell you about it after a decision has been made.

I have to make this quick because I'm about to leave my computer post, but. Even with the heat wave rolling in, 20 SOMETHINGS, DONT GET DISCOURAGED, or lethargic! I hate those days when I've been lounging on the couch for 4-5 hours watching Anthony Bourdain or Dog Whisperer marathons, and the one time i get up to use the rest room, I get a major head rush. No bueno.

SUre we're allowed to have that every now andthen, but when you're on your break ant least act like you are on one and do things outside of the home!

Okay this was a really crappy post, but I'll be back with something more interesting.

PAYCE.

try wearing this when youre not in your 20 somethings

living with the parentals

drank quite a bit last night and REALLY didnt feel like driving home. slept over @ eric's and left a message on mommy's phone saying that i "drank too much wine with the girls and didn't think that i should drive".
mom or dad didn't get mad or even call to yell at me.

mixed feelings.
had to lie about going out and being a responsible drinker.
22, living at home, and still having to worry about mommy and daddy getting mad at me for coming home late.
surprised that i didn't get shit from them.

oh, to live at hoome with the parentals in my 20 somethings.

simple art

simon schubert makes these images by simply creasing paper



remind me to bake more.

*jenky

Like a blind man who's just been given his sight back.

It's nearing the end of my internship here at the Getty, and there's so many things I've learned about myself and about the art world.

Today, I'd like to share one insight, and that is what to do with all of the contacts I've acquired.

I use the analogy of a blind man (me) who's just been given his sight, after never experiencing it before. Light feels like soemthing so foreign and so awesome that it alsmost becomes too much to bear and he would rather crawl back into the darkness of fear and insecurity. On a lesser degree, I've been given a lot of potentially valuable connections, but I'm not sure what to do with them. Sure, I've come to discover that we have a lot of mutual friends, but then comes the hard and arduous task of figuring out which contacts are more valuable than others. Becoming familiar with their personalities because you only really have one shot at making a good impression. Avoid writing empty emails, with empty promises filled with phrases like "Hey! We should have coffee some time!"

Anyway, I'm a little lost with all of these opportunities. Then there's the job search, then there's my second-priority personal life.

How to juggle all this....

posts from phones

I truly feel like RevRun by doing this but thought it an important factor of our generation of internet carrying mobile users. Though typing on my new Blackberry is taking some time to get used to, I can feel myself getting used to all this pretty quickly.

I didn't think that having a BB was all that useful but now by holding this product in my hand and being able to navigate the far corners on this earth... Well I'm impressed!is this what it is?? Is this where the addiction to a Crackberry begins?? We'll have to see.

GOD'S RESIGNATION SPEECH by Lucas Kavner

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Dear World,

I appreciate speaking directly to you, the people I live above, as your God. People who know me know that besides faith and family, nothing's more important to me than the world I created in seven days. Serving her people is the greatest honor I could imagine in the world. The one that I created, I mean, as God.

Earth's mission? − to contribute to the Universe. It's really strategic IN the universe as the air crossroads OF the universe, as a gatekeeper of the universe. Bold visionaries knew this: Earth is a really important planet. This planet, blessed with air, water, wildlife, minerals, New Jersey, AND oil and gas. It's energy, you know what I mean? EN-ER-GY. I gave you energy.

So to serve the Earth is a really intense responsibility, because I know in my soul that Earth is of such import in our very volatile universe. And you know me by now, I promised a couple thousand years ago to show MY independence...that's why I rested on the seventh day. That was foreshadowing.

All in all, I think pretty much everyone can agree that I did my job to the best of abilities. My Earth accomplishments speak for themselves. I worked tirelessly for the Earth. Think of all the great stuff I've made in my time as God:

− Fire

− The Renaissance

− Mario Batali

− the iPhone

People rag on me a lot. I mean a lot of people love me, but generally I get a lot of flak. It's pretty insane − my staff and I spend most of our day dealing with other people's PETTY grievances instead of progressing our planet now. I know I promised no more "lording as usual," but THIS isn't what anyone had in mind for EARTH.

Generally, I now think I can do more for the planet as just a guy who used to be God instead of the guy who currently is God, you know what I mean by this? Life is too short to compromise time and resources...it may be tempting and more comfortable to keep your God-head down, plod along, and appease those who demand, "Sit down and shut up," but that's the worthless, easy path − that's a quitter's way out. You can't sit down and shut up when you're God, which is why when I'm not God anymore, I can stand up and do other stuff, like not doing stuff, which is also important, yes?

You betcha.

And besides, a problem in our country today is apathy. It would be apathetic for me to just hunker down and "go with the flow." So by stepping down as God I'm avoiding the flow, which makes me a better God. This makes sense for a lot of reasons, reasons of which I will not go into now for fear of giving in to pressure. And I am not one to "give in to pressure from other people."

I'm not really a "person" anyway.

So, as of tomorrow, my assistant Ashley will step in as God. I think it is obvious she will carry out my duties admirably and goodly. And it is my promise to you that I will always be standing by, ready to assist. We have a good, positive agenda for Earth.

In closing I'd simply like to repeat the words of General MacArthur, a great, big General of the United States Army many years ago. He said, "We are not retreating. We are advancing in another direction."

And that's exactly what I am doing here today.

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via mcsweeneys

*jenky

They Want Me On Board! Well...sort of.

Currently sitting at my desk. Should be copying more DVDs for the archives, but felt I needed to share this with the rest of the 20 somethings before I moved on with my day.

Turns out my supervisor's been reading my mind. She wants me on board after the internship program so that I can finish what I've started, and keep productive until I find a job. No pay, but that's fine. To be invited to continue my work here at the Getty is an honor within itself.

Thinking I'll do part time, and take French extension courses at UCLA or something on the side.

Even though I'm learning how to think on my feet when things don't go according to plan, I'm realizing that it's still smart to have one anyway so that your mind doesn't wander and you keep your eye on the prize.

With that being said, hope all you guys are pushing forward. Play hard, work even harder.

-J

Lego house attempt for James May's Toy Stories

July 23, 2009

TOP Gear presenter James May is looking for volunteers to help him build a new house in Surrey - but one made entirely out of Lego bricks.

As part of his BBC series James May’s Toy Stories, he plans to build a two-storey house in the middle of Denbies Wine Estate in Dorking.

On Friday, more than three million Lego bricks were delivered to the vineyard in preparation for the task.

Denbies marketing and business development manager, Jeanette Simpson, said: “The millions of bricks came all the way from the Czech Republic. The house will be life-size with a staircase, toilet and shower.”

May will be hosting a building day on Saturday, August 1, when members of the public can help him with the challenge.

The event follows two other successful toy challenges which saw May build the world’s first Plasticine garden, winning the People’s Choice Award at the Chelsea Flower Show, and also the world’s largest model plane.

Anyone interested in taking part in the Lego house build should e-mail their contact details to lego@plumpictures.co.uk.

via geekology.com

*jenky

Resident Evil Zombie Shirt

i want one.

*jenky

teeheheee